Meant with love, but opened a Pandora's box...

Eric,

For all the positive you brought to me in this life, I never meant to turn it upsidedown for your remaining family. How ignorant I am! Even in death, you continue to give to me, which proves that death isn't what most people think or say it is. No matter how bad it gets tomorrow with mom and all, it doesn't matter. I have learned from this. Mom says so too.

I never meant this. This whole thing is a learning experience for me. I hope that your loved ones forgive mom and me. I know you yourself wouldn't want this to happen. I'll pray for their forgiveness tonight and all day tomorrow.

I don't remember you ever getting cross with me even when I faultered somehow in your class (ex: talked too much when you were talking, blew a line)...you were just too sweet to me. I'm so afraid I bismirched your memory. That was NOT my intention. I really don't care what happened or what you did in private--you're still an angel to me!

Of all the bad things I've done thusfar, this has to rank up there! Only, I truly didn't know it was bad! Shows you how dumb I am! God, I just hope your family pardons us! Be with my mom tommorow, okay? She's gonna need you and your grace! This is all my fault! It's horrible enough that you're gone!

I really don't blame your fam if they detest me. Though it will bother me, you can never be taken from me because you live inside my memory. I know you still must love me even though I'm dumb. Stupidity can be forgiven, right? Well, some stupidity, anyway. You DO still love me, don't you? Why do I even ask that? I know the answer to that question.

I miss you as always and ever!
-L.G., S.B.