When nothing goes right and my mouth gets me in trouble again...

I’ve gone and done it again, John…I’m in hot water. I guess I don’t have a right to get frustrated with the things I do in my life. I don’t tell lies to Kathleen. I never have. We don’t talk about the site. Tim is mad at me, and I understand why. Stupid me! Damn, I blew it. I’ll be so glad when Ryan moves in so I can leave the site for good. There’s been such sadness and it wares me down like a file. I think Timby now sees me as slime. I just want a “good job” every now and then. I know he works hard—he does all upgrades and board maintenance, which I can’t do myself because the site is much too huge I would barely know where or how to start. I look forward to leaving more than ever this Spring. I’m no use to anyone at the Heather site anymore—all I am is trouble…Stephen Sands was right all along!